Confessions for Showing 1 - 10 of 23
No mom, were not going to drive to your nearby town to see you on Mothers Day! I do recall you saying you already had plans on Thanksgivi.g, Christmas, Easter dinner, and my bday. You havent ever called or showed for any of you gkids bdays since you met your "wonderful" boyfriend. We see whats more important, so fuck off with your new family and dont try to pull that guilt trip bullshit on me. Happy Fn Mothers Day!
No less than 12 of my friends are pregnant right now. 2 of them told me it was due to birth control failure. I know some of them were trying but there are several I know weren't planning pregnancies. I wonder if that birth control recall earlier this year is the reason...
After slowing getting back into talking to my IL's . . . DH calls FIL back on a dopey question and FIL starts in on the money questions again. After demanding to know how much we have in savings and being told "It's really none of your business" again - FIL hangs up and proceeds to call the rest of the family to tell them that we are persona non grata once again. SIL laughs as she recalls the convo.
I have the worst headache and Excedrin has been taken off the shelves for weeks now due to a mass recall. It's the only aspirin that ever works for me, an no stores have it. Help!
I make my money stretch as much as I can. I don't party. I don't go out, I cook at home. I garden and can so I can save on groceries in the winter. I am learning how to make my own cleaning products. Part of it is to be "greener" but a big chunk of it is that I don't want to fund big corporations anymore. The constant recalls. I try to save but its hard when you are sick, have medical bills, and are still trying to stay afloat on a single income caring for 3 people. It pisses me off that those well off think less of me for not having spending money. I try my fucking hardest alright?!
DH & I were having a conversation the other day. Can't recall how it started but I told him that I didn't find any penis attractive. He said that he did find a vagina attractive. I told him he was lying. We googled them. DH's reaction on the 1st pg: "ooh, I like what I see" 2nd pg: See that's sexy" 3rd pg: "What is that? Is that suppose to look like that" 4 pg: Ew! That is just nasty". "Ok, I changed my mind". Point proven.
We've been invited to the in-laws for a spaghetti dinner. Everyone knows I don't eat it. I can eat salad, I am not making an ordeal about it. Why does everyone else make it an issue?? I didn't decline. I never even said a word about the meal. It's been 15 years. No-I will never, ever eat it. Back off!! (The reason is my mother forced me to eat it no less than 3x's a week as a kid. Forced being an understatement. I recall vomiting in it & possibly still having to eat it. Being beaten over it. It's none of their fucking business!)
I suffered brain damage 20 yrs ago in a car accident. No one would know just from speaking to me but I suffer every moment. I have chronic, severe pain, anxiety attacks and memory problems. I couldn't tell you what I had for breakfast or recall a conversation I had 5 minutes ago, unless I wrote those things down. I just want to be "normal." I'm so tired of struggling. I want to be the person I was before. I want to be pain free & just hug the girl I lost so many years ago. :(

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