The only thing from keeping me from leaving my abusive husband or committing suicide is my cat. I'm glad I miscarried those two times because I wouldn't want them to be raised with my dear husband .~_~.

I saw an old hs friend of mine at the Commissary and said a happy hello to her with my husband. She did the whole sorry ass goo-goo flirty eyes schtick at him. I am a shy person and she's always been this way. If I didn't know her, I'd say this behavior is the reason why some wives are taken aback by women in the military. She has about three kids and would still act that way to my husband, a stranger, and me, her old buddy.

I get the best Valentine's Day present ever this year! My husband will be home for R&R! So Excited!!!!

I hate my husband -__- the ugly truth

Finally in couples counseling. My husband used the analogy, that if a injured dog is kicked, it will bite. SO, in his mind, when I upset him, he is allowed to bite, aka hurt me. The counselor spent 1/2 an hour trying to explain that with humans, both are responsible for NOT kicking, and in no instance is acceptable to be 'bite' or be hurtful... all my husband walked away from the meeting thinking was that the counselor agreed with him and he is justified in hurting me. The counselor didn't even put a dent in his understanding....

My husband just received a Navy Commendation Medal and his fit rep was rated the highest in his company for NCOs and SNCOs. I have no idea what any of it means but I guess it's a great achievement for him and I'm proud of him even though I have no clue what any of the stuff he had me read on them was about.

So Valentines day is almost here. It's sad how crazy or angry people get. My husband and I don't celebrate it cuz we don't feel we need a day to remind us to tell the person we love them or buy gifts. We decide to say I love you or buy gifts just because. Why pay extra on flowers, candy and food. People need to google v day and see why it came. I think it's cute for children but come on society. Why do people get mad cuz there spouse got them shit. Make your own rules

Here's a question...my husband and I have problems, things that make us both unhappy. On top of that I want another child and he does not. When we first got married he agreed to having 3, we have 1. It not agreeing on the number of kids to have a good reason to divorce. I cry on a regular basis because I am so disappointed. I dont know what to do.

Here is how I dealt with my husband's deployment. I told him that I while I believed he would not cheat on me, I had guidelines if he did. I never wanted to know, the command better not know, he used protection and if he fell in love then he filed for divorce and I got the following. I did not spend my time worrying. Does it suck to be cheated on but why waste the time we have fighting about something that may or may not happen. I don't bring it up and he doesn't either. We don't fight and things are fine. Does he cheat? Don't know and don't worry about something I can't change.

One week from today I'll be nudging my husband in bed in the morning to see who is getting up to let the dogs out! I've missed him so much! I also totally plan to be the one sleeping in!!!