I was excited when I heard advertisements for a local health club. "$10.00! No commitment, no contract, nothing down!" Perusing the website I now see the ad didn't mention the $39.99 membership fee or the $20.00 processing fee. Damn it, I thought I finally found a place I could afford!

I feel strangely sad right now. While I was pregnant I was sad to pass 200lbs - I had hoped to stay under it. And now, almost three years later I passed 200 on my own. I still feel medium sized, I still can run around, I still have tons of energy. But it is time to face the facts that I am overweight. I've known it, I've denied it - but I'm only holding myself back by telling myself that I'm fine. It is time to change.

This is a busy weekend in our house, as we both have outside interests that require meetings today and one of us has to be home with the baby. My husband is over an hour late getting back from his hobby meeting. I am now an hour late getting to mine. Grrrr...

My best friend is a guy. We chat online, either actively or while working on other things, just about every night. He lives in another state, so we only see each other every two or three months when a group (50+) of us get together for a weekend of gaming. There is absolutely *nothing* besides friendship between us. I do sometimes wonder if my husband (happily married ten years, with a kid) sees it that way.

I've been nursing my DD on demand for the last 14 months - at least when I'm home. That used to work out to morning, when I got home, mid-evening 'snack', and before bed. Now that I am home for the summer, she wants to nurse ALL THE TIME. Every other minute she is pointing at my chest. We've decided, for my sanity and her consistency, to only nurse in her room in the morning and before she naps/sleeps. But her getting upset when I tell her no is just KILLING me. She doesn't understand why mommy isn't comforting her anymore. I can usually redirect her, but when I can't... emotional guilt trip!

For the love of cheese, if my husband says, "I just need to..." ONE more time as we try to walk out the door, I'm going to scream!

I'm watching my email in fascinated and amused horror. Someone group emailed every town employee about a team weight-loss program. That is over 1600 people. A few people thought it was a discussion and responded with 'reply all'. I've now gotten three 'remove me from your mailing list' messages in five minutes. Does that mean I will get over a thousand more today because people don't understand how the 'reply' vs 'reply all' work? I'd explain how it works, but I don't want to email everyone, thus becoming one of THEM!

We are having an all-week secret santa which has been great fun, until today. I've been getting chocolate from my SS every day, which is fine, but today it was chocolate covered strawberries. The sheet I filled out, that my SS received has very little info on it - my name, my favorite color, what type of candy I like - and allergies. Like my allergy to strawberries. Was that so hard to read? Thanks for the gift that keeps giving! (Giving me hives, a closed throat, puffy cheeks... I just passed it on to my person this morning - hope she isn't my SS!)

My husband lost his full time job right before DD was born. His home business is now thriving, he is watching DD while I teach, and goes to a part time job from 5-9 most nights during the week. He is amazing with DD, and is a sweetheart to me. Is it so wrong that I still get irrationally grumpy when he does not wash, or at least rinse, bottles when he is done feeding DD? Ew, old breast milk! But it is nice to be able to complain about such trivial things after such a rocky few months! :-D

I never use gift lists. Because of this, I may get you something that you will never use. But half of the time (or more, I hope!) I will end up finding something you never even thought of, something that you will think is awesome, something that will open your eyes to new things. Shopping exclusively from gift lists just makes everything even out. If I shop 'on list' for DD, DH, my Mom and Dad, and they shop 'on list' for me - why not cut out the middle man and have everyone buy themselves four presents? Nah - give me the surprise every time. And I'll send a surprise back!

Husband, I appreciate that you are having difficulty installing the map updates on the TomTom I bought you for Christmas. But cursing at it and acting all annoyed and bothered as you try to get it working while I am sitting in the next room just makes me feel horrible about my gift choice.