I dont know how to tell my family that we want an almost-elope wedding. No more than 8'ish people, including us.

I would never marry someone without having had sex first. Not saying that to be trashy, but because sexual compatibility is too critical in a successful marriage.

I found a really great book for kids to read and talk about when Dad is in the military, especially on deployment. Its a Scholastic book called My Dad's A Hero. I love it!

This weekend my dog chewed up a shoe of my everyday wear pair of shoes. I had to act angry but wasn't angry in the least bit. Now, I can shoe shop WITH DH's approval =)

I stuck to the punishment. I didn't cave in or let her off early. I'm proud of myself.

We're all probably some part of greater social experiment for some random scientific study.

DD's biodad has chosen not to be a part of her life. I still cannot decide about whether or not to contact his parents to let them know they have a granddaugher and to invite them to be a part of her life. I don't know what my goal is. We have nearly 2000mi between us, so its not like we can just visit all the time. Would they even care? Would it be too confusing for DD? I don't know what to do. So, everyday I do nothing.

5yo DD runs in and tells me "Look how big this breast is getting!" I start giggling and she asks me if I want to know why its bigger. She tells me it is because her heart is under that one. LOL

I wouldnt change anything if I could go back and "do it all over again". Not because I don't have any bad experiences, but because I truly believe in the Butterfly Effect.

Ok. I'm willing to consider that I may have a slight problem. I use a ton of pillows, and I'm very OCD about them. Certain pillows are for my head, and one for behind my back, then my "body pillow" for between my legs and under my arm..and my Side Sleeper. Very important: my pillows don't get switched with DH's. We have a queen bed and between the two of us we have 7 regular pillows plus my side sleeper and my body pillow.

When I have emotional pain, why do I crave so much physical pain? It sounds fucked up, I know. He got mad at me for cutting myself, but its the only thing that helps.

I can't wait for True Blood season 4 to start. Eric Northman is better than porn.

It cracks me the hell up that you bitch and moan about the effects of a 1 hour time change through which you traveled 4 days ago. Fucking invalid excuse negates your entire argument!

On lazy days when I choose to take the elevator instead of the stairs I fake a limp.