Why can't acne stop when you're not a teen anymore? Ugh.

These pants may be a little too tight, but I love how they make my butt look!

If I could change just one thing about my appearance, it would be my complexion. I am so envious of women who can leave the house in no makeup.

If my skin doesn't start improving soon I'm going to lose it!! It's been non-stop breakouts for the last year and sporadically since high school. I'm 25 and too old for this!

I wish I could find some combination of food that would keep me feeling full until lunch. I'm always starving to death by then!

I wish I just *knew* when the right time was to tell DD4 that DH isn't her biological dad. DH has been there since she was a baby, and he's the only dad she has ever known. I think now would be perfect, but he disagrees. He thinks we should wait until she's through childhood! I strongly disagree, and think she will resent us for not telling (not to mention she'll find out before then on her own). We really just need a professional to guide us, because what I say and think doesn't seem to matter. I think it's more about him not wanting to be treated like a 'step-dad' not a real dad.

If I haven't cried for a while, I will think of some terrible event, usually DD dying, and cry uncontrollably. It's like my body just knows I need a good cry and automatically thinks of something it knows I'll will be devastated about. I imagine being at her funeral, being in an empty home without her there and the pain of just thinking of it feels so real it's like the life is sucked right out of me. I have to remind myself it didn't really happen. It's scary to know that if it did happen I would never recover from it. I would go through life as a zombie on auto-pilot.

We decided last night that we're going to start TTC in December! Yay!!

I think DH and I might get Rosetta Stone and start trying to learn Spanish. I think (hope) it will be something fun we can do together. But the real reason we're doing it? So that someday we can move to a different country close to the beach where we'll need to know the language. I love the thought of raising our kids somewhere where they'll be exposed to so much culture. Not to mention the living near the beach part!

DH set a mouse trap b/c I saw one the other night and freaked out. We caught him but set out another just in case. We've now caught three. Three! I'm shuddering thinking about how many more we'll catch. God I can't wait to move!

Oh god I just touched my nose and I had a booger stuck to my finger! Aaahh!! I wonder how many people saw it. I'm mortified!!!

Doing practically nothing but data entry is making this the longest week ever!

If I walk in the bathroom and someone is in a stall and I have to go #2 I'll just wash my hands like that's what I went in there for and leave until they come out. I cannot do 'that' with someone else there.

Is 3pm to early to mentally check out for the day?

Thank god my boss is laid back because I just had to fix what I was trying to turn in like a gagillion times. Gah!

I feel like we got married too soon and for all the wrong reasons.

I would GLADLY take an older, cheaper car to get a lower payment. Gladly.

We've been married 1yr, together 3, and I did a sexy dance for the first time the other night after he begged. I've always been self conscious about looking like an idiot but he LOVED it! It made me feel great, even though I was super nervous!

My DH only brushes his teeth at night if I deny him sex until he does it. It's a huge turn off when he starts in on me with bad breath. In fact, I don't think anything is a bigger turn off. I don't get how he can be so neglectiful of his personal hygiene. He takes care of it in every other way.

I really really want to be more into sex. But I basically could care less if it happens or not. I felt the same way when I wasn't taking the pill. I think that I'm just not all that attracted to DH, even though he is an attractive person. Sigh.