Okay, I have officially started today! Joined the gym yeaterday, had fajitas last night. I am going to blast this sixty pounds even if it means going back to my burlesque diet. Wish me luck!

My what a mess I am. Was Doing great yesterday, then discovered DH had run over something in our only vehicle. Bent two rims and we need two new tires. When I tried to change the worse of the two with our spare, realized Chevy made it impossible to get the spare off. We don't have the cash for this! Bring on the gummi bears...

It drives me batty when strippers say they are Burlesque dancers. Nothing against strippers, but I spent years in dance classes, thousand$ on costumes, and worked hard to be respected as an actual artist. I have never shown more skin than what a bikini covers, and if someone tried to tip me during a performance I would have ignored them. If you are an exotic dancer, own it. don't try to to mask what your doing by calling it something else. Your still pretty awesome!

The POWM site has me so paranoid. I can't just run in after I workout or throw some sweats on if we need something in the middle of the night. Too many of the pictures come from TX and a few of the people have looked like people we know.

I hurt DH feelings this morning. I had a really bad day mentally yesterday, and when I called the Doc to see what to do, he told me to take a double dose of one of my meds, and a xanax. Totally knocked me out. DH said he tried to wake me up this morning, and that I sat up, pouted, said 'I was having a great dream, and you wake me up to come back to this' and scowled at him before laying back down. I have no recollection of this, but feel bad. This is why I only take Xanax when the doctor advises me to.

I give up! The only person that appriciates all the work I put into our home and meals is the dog. At least he loves me today!

We have not had cable in over three years.I was super worried that having any television would make me a lazy parent, so we got rid of it. We rent movies and thats it. I bought DH a new tv as a congratulations gift for his promotion. He begged me to turn the cable back on, and I agreed, with the stip that we would get DVR so it isn't on while our son is up. Gets installed tomorrow. I feel like I have made a HUGE mistake.

I love DS, but every so often he makes me think, 'If I was a two year old too, I would totally smack you' not proud of it, but there it is...

I feel so blessed to have such an awesome MIL. Almost makes up for the fact that my mother has always me feel like the parent of a 15 year old when I deal to her. I hope I am as great a mom and wife as she is!

DH says that there is nothing sexier than seeing me do handyman stuff around the house or with the car. Every guy I dated in the past gave me crap about being very mechanically inclined. DH will never know how much that casual remark meant to me. I feel pretty.

I would kick box a zombie right now for a Dublin Dr. Pepper.

So... I know Vladimir Putin is evil, and all that jazz, but... There is something in me that thinks he is so freaking hot. Why oh why must I fantasize about sociopathic types? Yeah, Voldemort kinda does it for me too..

I am active in our towns civic theatre.Getting ready to audition for Gypsy. I asked DH if he thought I had a good voice. He said'Well you are a better actress than singer'. Made an appointment with a vocal coach, and at the end of the first lesson told her what DH said. She told me I must be a kickass actress cause I have a great voice. She even offered to coach me for free because she said she enjoys working with people that have natural talent. Made me feel super. I am so ready to nail this and make DH proud!