It's 5:13am and I'm almost off from work... I just hope and pray that once I take our 2 oldest to the busstop that he'll have our 11 month old fed and give me at least an hour to sleep before heading off to work. I'm just begging for some decent sleep. PLEASE!!

My MIL never listens! I'm very anal about how and when things get done around my house and she completely ignores me. You don't wash underwear with the other clothes (they are their own load), dishes need to be washed thoroughly, you DO NOT use metal utensils on MY GREEN PANS!!!!

I wish my ex would just "rot in hell". Literally. In the past 6 years, I've gotten a total of $120 in child support. IN 6 YEARS!! Our children together are 10 yoa and 6 yoa. He hasn't called in over a year, let alone try to actually see them in over 2 years. I want to have his rights terminated and have their last names changed to mine but cannot afford an attorney to do so. I wouldn't even be able to locate him so he could sign the documents...Shit...will he even allow it to be done? BASTARD!! I HATE YOU!!! Why can't you roll over and die?? {please God forgive me for feeling this way}

Found out a month ago that my deadbeat ex has Hep C and isn't taking care of himself. Lucky for me we ended our relationship more than 6 years ago and he got it recently (I got tested just in case). We have 2 kids together and if he "passes" I'll finally have full custody & it'll be easier for me to change their last names. I can finally get on with my life knowing that the kids won't be asking when he's gonna call or come around...he won't be able to if he's 6 feet under. I hate him...he's hasn't been there for the kids ever. {forgive me God...again. I don't want to think like this}