I found out today that I have a clotting disorder and will have to be on heparin for the rest of my life. I wish that I would have know this before my miscarriages because they said that this disorder is what caused them. I know that I should be happy that something didn't happen to the two kids that I have that are healthy but all I can think about is that my body killed the other babies and if I had know about the disorder could have saved them.